Most of you folks know me as Ariel X but that’s certainly just my superhero name. I do consider myself somewhat of a superhero but not in the traditional sense. The real hero in this story is actually Jiu-Jitsu. Everyone’s life is dynamic and multidimensional. As we age we tend to conform and get forced into a one-dimensional process of thinking. That logic has us believing that there is only one way of doing things that things have always been done this one way so they should always be done that one way. I took the road less traveled. I didn’t conform. I’ve shown the world that there is no one size fits all approach to getting what you want out of life. Life has ups and downs. In my life, from age 0-28, the ups were never really that great and the downs were seemingly end-of-the-world types of situations. At the age of 28, I was in a terrible spot in every aspect of my life. My career was not in a place I was proud of; I felt like I wasn’t as successful as I wanted to be. I felt like I was working just to make enough to be able to work another day, I felt lost and unmotivated in every area of my life and the worst part was that I had no idea how to fix it or train my mind to learn how to break any cycles I was in. To top it all off, I was going through a breakup with a partner that I had hoped was going to be my life partner. I felt myself slipping into bad habits after the break-up. I had vices left and right. I would work all day to try to numb my sadness. To numb me when I was home from work, I would open my bottle of Jack Daniels and drink while I trolled people on the internet and got mad at people who being honest to me about my porn performances. I was a miserable soul who had no guidance, no mentors, and who felt I was losing everything during my breakup. Something just wouldn’t let me keep going on the downward spiral. I have no idea what it was, but something in my brain ( some Jimini cricket type of conscience) told me to get myself up, dust myself off and try to become “ unbreakable”. What is that even? Unbreakable? For me, it meant getting into the best shape of my life, getting the best job of my life, and turning myself into an unstoppable athlete in the process. Of course, I was doing all of this as some kind of revenge on my ex hoping to make them regret leaving me. I felt a little Mark Zuckerberg-ish to be honest. So I dived into Jiu-Jitsu training hardcore. In the beginning, I was at the gym for 4 hours a day. I would do a class in the morning with 1 hour of drilling and 1 hour of sparring. Then another class at night with the same format of first-hour drilling, second-hour rolling. Jiu-Jitsu becomes my sanctuary. It was there for me when I felt my lowest. I force my brain to stay mindful of the tasks at hand. I was too busy trying to save my arms from being broken or my head choked off to think about my work life or personal life. I found that learning moves would be frustrating. I would be shown the move and try to execute it only to fail over and over and over. I was beaten down, beat up, demoralized from losing over and over, and yet I kept coming back to class to learn. I absolutely hated that I was sucking so much. I started staying late after class with some of my training partners; started picking their brains on what I was doing wrong. I got so much help from my training partners, it really started to restore my faith back in mankind. These people didn’t owe me anything, they didn’t need to teach me for free after class when they could be heading home to their families. It meant a lot to me to get the help, and I didn’t want to take advantage of anyone’s kindness. I started investing in myself. Rather than spend money on going out to dinner with friends only to eat and drink my paycheck away, I started hiring my BJJ professors to teach me in private sessions. I had no need for brain-numbing activities or substances any longer. I had my gurus and I had a path. Jiu-Jitsu saved my life. Jiu-Jitsu gave me a purpose, Jiu-Jitsu taught me life lessons every day. Everything in my martial arts classes could be applied to every aspect of my life. Show up, be consistent, be present ( mindful), learn how to learn, accept that someone will always be better than you but you can still win if you change your style. But just start ( I don’t want Nike to sue me for using their catchphrase so I changed it a little but the message is the same. LOL)
Fast forward to more than a decade, and I must say I’m in a very great spot and I’m living my best life. I have a job I love. I got my Black Belt ( and I’m still learning) I have amazing friends and I’m starting some web education programs to attempt to motivate others to find their passion and thrive from it. I want to give back. I know from my journey that giving is one of the most powerful paths to your own happiness.
It’s no secret, that I have been in XXX adult films since 2003. I am not going to hide that fact or try to pretend I do not run and operate the world’s biggest and most successful erotic wrestling sites. I am proud of the adult work I have done, but this site is not about that work. This site is about my passion for wellness, discipline, and martial arts. This site is my journey in wellness and the journey is still ongoing. I got my black belt in Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu on Dec 13, 2019, but I still go to class nearly every day and I still yearn to learn more. I will always crave learning. I am not too proud to say if I do not know something. One of the things I have accepted in my journey is that I don’t know a lot. Once I learn one thing it merely opens my eyes to how much I don’t know about the subject. I will be a student for life and what I learn in my journey, which I hope to share with you here on my site. In addition to being a BJJ practitioner, I also train Muay Thai, Judo, Sambo, I do weight lifting, I run, swim and I have even been known to compete in a Fitness competition or two. I love challenging my mind and body. Cross-training and doing competitions help me use my body as my own personal science experiment. On a fun side note, my relationship with BDSM has also helped me challenge my body and prepare for competitions and challenges in sports. I will post full blogs about this because it is sincerely fascinating how BDSM and sports correlate.
I do not protest to be perfect. I have flaws, I get lazy, I go up and down in weight. I have months at a time when my mind isn’t healthy. I get depressed, I fight demons. I do keep myself in check, however. I find ways to get motivated. I find ways to fight depression. This is will be my journey in and out of the dark and light places of my life, and I am hoping to motivate and inspire anyone who wants to come along on the journey with me
